It's 2.50 am again and instead of snoring away in bed, im here once again, typing my heart out. The troubled mind has its means to keep me awake. Sickening.
 
I recieved 2 more calls for tuition services today. Rejected on and accepted the other. Wonder if i did the right thing in accepting the third tuition in 48 hours. Schedule is pretty tight now but the thought of my empty account prompted me to say yes to the worried parent. Yes. barren account. Monetary motivation is a power tool.

The tight schedule bothered me in the afternoon. How am i going to squeeze in the church if i ever decide to go? I was telling my roommate that maybe i shuld experiment by dropping the church and taking more tuition. I wonder then if all the students will leave me, leading to the conclusion that these opportunities were offered to me by the intention of God. What ridiculous ideas bore within the thick skull of mine. Lao da reminded me never test God...i thought so too. Banished that thought the instant it surfaced in my mind. Banished it with the might of my faith. =) proud of myself!
 
I am so amazed by myself, at how easily i can be affected by very small things. Sometimes i will just go nuts over a sms or worse still going nuts about NOT having a sms. Things so insignificant can actually irritate the hell out of me. Correction, irritate isnt quite right the word to use here. Creating a stir would be more approriate...Je perds le sommeil! M'épargner de la pensée d'elle !
 
Sorry about the pile of rubbish above, happened to be reading Da Vinci's Code in the past 48 hours. Simply quoted some things from there, something like save me! haha... Anyway, the book was pretty interesting, i just finished it not long ago. Started on Dan Brown's latest book back on the flight home and decided to grab a copy instead of waiting for others to finish. The book managed to keep my fascination growing until the second half. The story didnt turn out to be as spectacular as the introduction promised. Felt that the writer tried to hard to twist the story around a man's crazy ambition. Overall though, a not too bad read.
 
Went to watch Super Size Me, the documentary about the mad man eating macs for a month. Felt weird with xiao ming sitting beside me, wondering if he ever thought of keeping fit for once. I did ask him back in Bremen if he was worried about his health given his huge frame. He muttered something like a 'yes" but continued munching away on chocolate and instant noodles. I guess he is equally sane as my good fren who prefer salt to sugar in his earl grey. However, xiaoming has this edge... Power of love actually got him to play badminton. Something my fren who drinks dead sea - water instead of newater, would never do. at least not yet...
 
After blogging, im still wide awake.
 
I wonder if i SHOULD go to church. I definitely will if the people there stop treating me like a complete idiot. Even though it's their way of showing welcome to "newcomers" like me, i will appreciate if they just leave me alone to explore the religion. And if they insist of sending me some guidance, at least get me someone who i can learn from...sorry. im not complaining about the person just that we cant really communicate.  In my new found interest of christainity, the tunnel to enlightenment is branched. Having the bible as your sole torch aint going to help much. Worst still, i dun have that torch! I should stop talking about this. Next topic pls...
 
Till today, i have had a plate of chicken rice, a plate of duck noodles, mee pok and hokkien mee. I know it seems alittle small in portion considering the number of meals i should have. My loss in appetite prevent me from touching anymore gourmet winning singaporean dishes. Some turkish rolls anyone?
 
i've been waking up REALLY late into the afternoon and sleeping REALLY early into the morning. This is bad. ahhhhhhhhhhhh let me fall asleep now!!!